"Here I go again on my own-going down the only road I've ever known"-Journey

Well, here I am again……the same weight I was when I started this blog and much closer to 30!

I don’t know what it is but I have no will power or drive or commitment to staying “on plan” when it comes to my eating. I really don’t know how to make a change that I can stick to.

That said-I am not giving up. I will try again. I do truly believe that I can get my weight in check. I know that the tools are there. I do believe that the tools work. I just think I have a problem working the tools.

Here are my strong suits:

I generally like “healthy food”. I love salads, veggies, seafood, chicken etc.
I can cook.
I enjoy cooking
I enjoy menu planning.
I enjoy grocery shopping.
I am disciplined enough to bring my lunch to work everyday.
I don’t go to the vending machines at work (except for diet soda-and that is very occasionally)
I have a great boyfriend who is very supportive
I don’t have a big sweet tooth, once in awhile I may get a craving, but not very often
I don’t usually eat after dinner
I know a lot about calories and fat, and usually can identify what is in something and how bad for me it is (doesn’t usually stop me from eating it but at least I know what I am biting into)

Here are my weaknesses:

I like to drink beer & wine
I like to eat out (and do not make good choices when I do)
Weekends are a challenge because of the lack of structure in my eating
Too many places deliver too many good foods to my apartment and that wonderful boyfriend of mine never wants to pressure me to cook dinner for us so….
I love fast food.
I am starving when I get home and do not make good decisions when I get very hungry
I don’t like to workout.
I don’t like to workout after work
I don’t like to workout before work
I really like to sit and watch tv

I am hoping that by outlining my strengths and weaknesses that I can clearly see what they are and use the strengths to overcome the weaknesses.

My first step is to go back to WW meetings. I have been using the program online and it isn’t working. I do not blame WW I blame me. I am hoping that the support and accountability of a group will help me. Additionally, there are always little old ladies that work the scales and the idea of them shaking their little heads when don’t lose or when I do gain weight can be very motivating.

My first meeting is on Sunday. You may be wondering why I am starting WW again, the week of Thanksgiving. I could be setting myself up for failure on the very first week. Well, I figure if I can go back to WW the week of Thanksgiving and lose weight that week in particular, then maybe this time I will be able to work the tools and get myself to be Thin By Thirty (or at least while thirty J )!